I’m absolutely awful at exams. I find it so hard to remember and retain information which why I often get better results in coursework and practical work. I’m often clumsy and find it hard to do the simple things like tie my laces, do up buttons.
Pretty sure I was the last kid in my year to be able to tie my own tie.
The one thing I am proud of, and this is going to sound so vain, is that I can do my own eye liner with straight edges and actually just where it needs to be. So it’s not all bad.
I also bite the skin around my nails and I’m constantly biting the inside of my mouth and my lips. I’m literally doing it without even thinking about I can’t stop. Whether I’m bored, anxious or worried I will not stop.
Another thing I’m proud of this month is that I went to the doctors, to talk about my feelings and emotions. I’ve never been to the doctors without my mum and I felt so proud to get it off my chest by myself. He suggested anti depressants or yet ANOTHER counsellor to help me – I have been through 5 counsellors.
At this moment in time I’ve learnt that my wrapping skills really are as bad as i thought they were and that I’m trying so hard not to explode at my parents and my little sister. I feel like I can’t deal with anything anymore.
Yours sincerely, Maddie🦁🖤